Maybe
you found this article because you are experiencing profound
feelings of distress. Maybe it has gone beyond what you
feel that you can endure. But you did find these words and
that tells me you are looking for something. Maybe I can
help provide a little reflection or pose some thoughts about
suicide you hadn't considered.
It is not my place to judge you. From here I do not even
know you. But if you are feeling so bad as to want to finish
your life, what is clear is that you feel life is too much
and that you can no longer cope. That does not make you
bad or crazy. It makes you a person who is distressed and
in need of understanding.
I do not consider it my business to tell you what is right
or wrong. What I do feel I can offer is some insight I have
gained from my experience of working with people who have
felt suicidal or even attempted it.
Suicide is the most serious act you can carry out. It is
forever. You cannot change it.
You can always change your life.
Have you really considered what
suicide means? You may not actually want to die. You may
be wanting something else, something different to what you
are now experiencing and just think suicide will give you
that. Many people seek suicide as way of gaining relief
from something. They want to feel better. And the thinking
stops there. Suicide will not grant you relief. Suicide
will not make you 'feel better'. You will be dead. You will
not feel the relief. You will
not feel better.
You will never know how things might have
changed with a little help and time.
There are many reasons why a person might comtemplate suicide.
It is rash to generalise because for some it represents
a wish to 'no longer feel unbearable feelingsl'
while for others it may represent a profound sense of futility
or 'what's the use'. These are
all responses to how things seem at the moment.
There is a little story I would like to tell you. It isn't
long.
| The
Golden Thread A blind, old farmer and his son were going through hard times. The rains were scarce and the crops were poor. One morning the farmer woke to discover that his prized, fine horse had been stolen. His neighbour said, "What a terrible thing to happen!". The farmer said, "We will see". A few days later there was a storm. The storm was harsh and the land so hardened that floods broke out. The floods were so severe that the stables were washed away. And his neighbour said, "What a terrible thing to happen!". The farmer said, "We will see.". The flood worsened and became so bad that if his much-loved horse had been there, it would have drowned. A few days later the storm abated and the farmer received a call. The thief had been arrested and the much-loved horse found. Would he come collect it? The farmer was too old and blind to walk all that way, so sent his son instead. And his neighbour said, "How wonderful they found your horse!". The farmer said, "We will see.". The horse had a tough time with the thief and was nervous. The son had a difficult time even getting near him. He finally managed to calm the horse enough to return to the village. At the last minute, the horse startled and threw the boy high in the air. The young man fell hard and broke his leg. And his neighbour said, "What a terrible thing to happen!". The farmer said, "We will see.". A week later, war broke out and the military arrived in the village to draft all the young men. What no one yet knew was that the mission would fail and all the village's recruits would not survive. The farmer's son had stayed home with his broken leg.. |